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  Contents

  Chapter 1

  Chapter 2

  Chapter 3

  Chapter 4

  Chapter 5

  Chapter 6

  Chapter 7

  Chapter 8

  Chapter 9

  Chapter 10

  Chapter 11

  Chapter 12

  Chapter 13

  Chapter 14

  Chapter 15

  Chapter 16

  Chapter 17

  Chapter 18

  Chapter 19

  Chapter 20

  Chapter 21

  Chapter 22

  Chapter 23

  Chapter 24

  Chapter 25

  Chapter 26

  Chapter 27

  Chapter 28

  Chapter 29

  Chapter 30

  Chapter 31

  Chapter 32

  Chapter 33

  Chapter 34

  Chapter 35

  Chapter 36

  Chapter 37

  Chapter 38

  Chapter 39

  Chapter 40

  Chapter 41

  Chapter 42

  Chapter 43

  Chapter 44

  Chapter 45

  Chapter 46

  Chapter 47

  Chapter 48

  Chapter 49

  Chapter 50

  Chapter 51

  Chapter 52

  Chapter 53

  Chapter 54

  Chapter 55

  Chapter 56

  Chapter 57

  Chapter 58

  Chapter 59

  Chapter 60

  Chapter 61

  Chapter 62

  Chapter 63

  Chapter 64

  Chapter 65

  Chapter 66

  Chapter 67

  Chapter 68

  Chapter 69

  Chapter 70

  Chapter 71

  Chapter 72

  Chapter 73

  Chapter 74

  Chapter 75

  Chapter 76

  Chapter 77

  Chapter 78

  Chapter 79

  Chapter 80

  Chapter 81

  Chapter 82

  Chapter 83

  One Year Later . . .

  Back Ads

  About the Author

  Credits

  Copyright

  About the Publisher

  Ryder smashed a ball over the fence and tried not to smile.

  He jogged the bases while his teammates whistled, catcalled, or clapped, depending on the kind of person they were and which side they’d bet on. His team’s best pitcher, Ben Salisbury, had said he’d strike Ryder out with four pitches. Ryder knocked it out on the second. Only the kids who went to Dalton School with Salisbury bet on him, and they did it out of loyalty. Everyone knew Ryder had the best Little League batting average in Manhattan.

  Practice ended. The fields in Central Park were booked solid, so the team could never run over its assigned time.

  Salisbury spoke in a superior tone of voice. “Anyone can get lucky. No way can you do that again. Tomorrow, let’s go double or nothing . . . unless you’re scared.”

  Ryder squinted at him in the bright sunshine filtering through the metal backstop.

  “That’s if you can make it till Friday without my twenty bucks and still have enough money to pay for your lunch.” Salisbury waggled his eyebrows at his buddies and they all laughed.

  Ryder shrugged without a word, pulled his coat on over his baseball uniform, and walked away. Some of his teammates were more upset about it than he was, and they cried foul. There was some pushing and shoving, but Ryder’s eyes were already on his mom, and he marched toward her, not wanting her to have to be on her feet any longer than she needed. His mom cleaned the Pierre Hotel every day of the week—even today, Sunday—and he knew she never sat down. He’d heard the story about Mrs. Cruz, who sat down on the edge of a bathtub, got caught, and was fired. And his mom needed this job.

  Jason Anton caught up to him just as Ryder’s mom gave him a kiss on the cheek and a quick hug.

  “Hi, Ms. Shoesmith.” Jason actually tipped his cap to Ryder’s mom. He was a private school kid too, Allen Stevenson School. Almost everyone on this select league team besides Ryder was.

  “Call me Ruby, Jason. You’re making me feel old.” Ryder’s mom was anything but old. She got mistaken for a college student all the time, and Ryder for her younger brother instead of her son.

  “Okay, I’ll try. Hey, man.” Jason chucked Ryder’s shoulder and spoke low. “You shouldn’t have let him off like that. What a jerk.

  “You should’ve seen him, Ms. Shoesmith. Ryder knocked a home run on Salisbury’s second pitch and the bet was twenty dollars that he’d strike him out in four.” Jason announced this with pride, but stopped smiling when he saw Ryder’s mom frown.

  “I didn’t take it, Mom.” Ryder shook his head at Jason and mouthed for him to shut up.

  “Anyway, Ryder,” Jason said, “Friday night there’s this sleepover at the museum. It’s an Egyptian party. Everyone gets wrapped up in toilet paper and there’s magicians and snakes and all these contests. It’s super fun and my mom said I could bring a guest, so . . . wanna come?”

  Ryder didn’t even look at his mom because he knew her reaction. “Oh, man, I wish I could. Sorry, Jason, but thanks a lot.”

  Jason’s face dropped and he stopped walking. “You sure?”

  “Naw, we got all this stuff planned for Friday, but thanks, Jason.” Ryder turned to go.

  “Hey,” Jason said. “I’m gonna keep asking you, you know.”

  “Thanks,” Ryder said.

  “You do that, Jason. You’re a very nice boy.” Ryder’s mom flashed a smile full of perfect white teeth, which outshined even the sun because of her tan skin and crow-black hair.

  Ryder tugged her along without looking back, then jammed his hands deep in his coat pockets as they walked silently through the park. Tiny buds exploded lime green from the tips of many tree branches. Other branches bore only heavy purple pods, ready, but waiting for the real spring, not just a sunny day. Ryder smelled roasted chestnuts from some unseen vendor, probably out on Central Park West. He had never eaten one, but he loved the warm, rich smell of them.

  His mom cleared her throat to get his attention. Ryder rolled his eyes and braced himself, because he already knew what was coming.

  “Why do you always do that?” Her voice was soft, like her skin, like her full, dark hair.

  “Do what?” Ryder knew she wouldn’t like his reply, but couldn’t help himself from playing dumb.

  “Well, you know. We’ve had this discussion before.”

  “Let’s not have it again,” he said.

  “I just don’t want you to be . . .”

  “What?” He flashed his eyes at her, daring her to say it.

  She pressed her lips tight, then spoke. “A mama’s boy, Ryder.”

  “Well, I am, so there.” To tease her, he put a thumb in his mouth and began sucking on it.

  “Oh, you!” She gave him a playful shove and he grabbed her, wrestling around and tickling her, right up underneath the arms of her bright yellow puffy coat until she screamed for him to stop. “Please!”

  He did stop, and she tackled him, driving him off the sidewalk and onto the thin, muddy grass.

  “You’re crazy!” he shouted, laughing even though the mud soaked through the seat of his pants. “Help! My mother’s lost her mind!”

  She tickled him now, and he got her too, until they both laughed so hard they had tears in their eyes and they lay back together looking at the bright blue sky. Clouds thick and fat as whipped cream crept toward Long Island.

  “Soon, you’re not gonna stand a chance,” he said. />
  “I know. You’re growing up.”

  Part of Ryder liked the sound of that, but there was also something scary about it. He liked being friends with his mom and suspected growing up would change that. Like her pushing him to hang out with other kids. He didn’t want to hang out with other kids. He was happy by himself, with a book, or with her.

  She sighed. “He’s so nice, that Jason.”

  “You can’t let it go, can you?” He punched a fist into his baseball mitt. “Friday night is our movie night.”

  “It doesn’t have to be. That’s what I’m telling you.”

  “Why? You want to go out on a date?” He knew she got asked out all the time. He’d seen men stop cold on the street, even heard them suggest dinner sometime.

  She slapped him lightly on the head. “I want you to be a boy. Boys hang out with their friends.”

  “It’s hard to have friends when you don’t even have a phone.” He wanted to get her off the subject, and he knew it riled her when he complained about not having a phone.

  She sighed. “Well, one day, you’ll be a doctor and able to afford cell phones for everyone. . . . I clean toilets.”

  Ryder’s jacket felt suddenly tight and the ground cold and wet. He hated when she talked like that, hated that she cleaned other people’s messes for a living. His voice got hard. “Yeah. One day.”

  He got up and so did she, the magic broken. They weren’t friends anymore, they were a typical mom and kid, mad about things they didn’t see eye to eye on. They started to walk, winding their way through the park along the familiar route that led from the baseball fields to a rough and run-down part of the city where they lived. What she said about cleaning toilets still bothered him, and he wanted to swing back. He took his time, searching for a plan of attack.

  Finally, he had it. He cleared his throat and, to get her full attention, he held up the hand with the glove on it. “One day, I’ll play in the majors and I’m gonna buy you a penthouse on Fifth Avenue.”

  He knew she hated the Upper East Side because that’s where the real snobs lived—Trump, Bloomberg, the Hiltons. And the only thing she hated worse than anything old, loud, or excessively wealthy was a professional athlete. When the Mets signed Johan Santana to a $137 million contract and he showed her the sports page at the breakfast table, she snatched it from him, crumpled the paper, and jammed it in the trash.

  “Focus on school.” She had glared at him. “Those people aren’t the ones you need to look up to. Look at A-Rod. It’s a bad business, that sports. I don’t care how much money there is in it.”

  Ryder shrugged to himself, remembering her words to him as she dragged him now along the sidewalk toward the corner where they crossed 110th Street. The sirens on the street matched his mood—angry, desperate. Ryder wanted to break free from her grip. He was nearly as tall and as strong as she was now, and it didn’t suit him to be manhandled by a tiny woman who looked like his sister. All he needed was a reason to fight back and tear himself free.

  The sirens and blaring fire truck horns gave him a sense of urgency and strength. He stopped in his tracks.

  She turned and glared, her feet just at the edge of the curb. “What are you doing?”

  “I’m going back to the field. Play some catch with my ‘friends.’ You want me to have friends, right?” He removed her hand. “And I need the work if I’m going to be a pro.”

  “You’re talking nonsense.” She grabbed his arm again by the coat sleeve.

  The noise of emergency vehicles grew so loud, it was deafening.

  “No, I’m not.” He snatched his arm free from her grip.

  She stumbled backward off the curb, and tripped out into the street and in front of a roaring truck. He saw a blur, that’s all, a blur. He opened his mouth to scream, but nothing came out.

  She was just gone, and time floated like a dying balloon in a warm, empty room.

  The truck that struck her swerved and ran the red light, crashing into the slow-moving stream of traffic and one of the fire trucks racing by. Tires shrieked. Metal smashed into metal, crunching human parts like chicken bones in the mouth of a pit bull.

  “Mom?” Ryder whispered, in shock. He stood, blinking, his jaw hanging slack. He staggered, a zombie with feet dragging, arms crooked and swinging without rhythm. One of the vehicles in the pileup was a fire rescue truck, and in the corner of his mind something said that had to be a good thing.

  A crowd quickly gathered, but they let him through. On the street in a dark puddle of yesterday’s rain his mother lay looking at the sky.

  “Oh, Lord. Don’t you take her home, Lord,” an older lady cried.

  Ryder looked back to where the words had come from. An old lady in a gray wool cap that matched her long shabby coat poked her tongue out from the gap in her teeth in a grimace of pain. He wanted to tell her that everyone knew his mother was beautiful and—in his fog—that seemed an important thing to say, but his own tongue had no feeling.

  A groan drew his attention back to his mother. The sound came from a fireman with the name “Raymer” sewn into his jacket. There were two firemen, and they knelt on either side of her, Raymer touching her neck, the other—whose coat said “McDonald”—with a hand on her bright yellow down coat and an ear to her lips. She lay still with her arms straight out and her long legs crooked and crossed at the ankles in their tight jeans. She’d been knocked right out of her Timberland boots. Ryder saw one lying crooked under a truck tire, yellow orange and new and unlaced the way she liked.

  Her head lay in a glossy halo of silky black hair. Her enormous dark eyes stared wide and empty.

  The fireman named Raymer removed his fingers from her neck and looked at his partner.

  “Get the AED, Derek!” Doyle McDonald screamed before blowing into Ryder’s mother’s mouth and starting chest pumps, up and down, back and forth. Muscles jumped beneath the skin in his arms. It was a crazy dance that didn’t end until the other fireman returned with a white plastic box and a pair of scissors.

  “Mom?” Ryder repeated, a little louder now. Panic boiled over in Ryder’s brain. He began to cry, knowing he’d caused it, desperate to take it back. Willing her to get up. If she did, she could drag him up and down the street all day and he’d never pull away.

  Derek Raymer unzipped the jacket, then cut her black sweater up the middle and it fell away, baring Ryder’s mother’s honey-colored skin and her ribs to the cold sunshine and the crowd of strangers. It didn’t seem to matter. Doyle already had two hand-sized paddles he’d removed from the box. The wires stretched across Ryder’s mother and Doyle held the paddles up on either side of her chest, one high, one low.

  “Everyone clear!” Doyle shouted.

  Derek held his arms out and gave a nod. “Clear.”

  Doyle pressed the paddles into her chest. Her neck arched and her body went rigid. The shock ended. Doyle removed the paddles and looked at his partner. Derek felt her neck and shook his head.

  Ryder choked and sobbed. “Mom!”

  “Again!” Doyle bellowed. “Clear!”

  “Clear,” Derek said.

  Doyle shocked her again. Derek felt her neck.

  “Got something.”

  Even in his fog, Ryder felt his own heart clench with hope. Doyle was blowing air into her lungs again and did so until Derek returned, this time with an oxygen mask. A siren screamed as an ambulance screeched to a stop on the street. Two EMTs appeared. Doyle shouted for a stretcher. The men barked at each other, urgent and direct. Their words were a scramble.

  “Internal bleeding.”

  “Heart stopped.”

  “Breathing.”

  “Irregular.”

  “Hurry.”

  “Go.”

  They loaded her in. Ryder wandered close, but was lost, speechless among all the chaos. Doyle stood with one hand on the ambulance door and looked back. “Anyone with her?”

  Everyone took a half step back except Ryder. He still couldn’t speak, but his
hand came partway up and Doyle found his eyes.

  “Come on.”

  Ryder took the fireman’s hand and was packed into the back of the ambulance like a suitcase, tucked into the corner while Doyle and the heavy EMT with a goatee slammed the doors shut and bent to work over his mother. Ryder hooked his fingers under the lip of the seat with one hand; on his other hand he still wore the baseball mitt. He bumped along and leaned into the turns to keep from falling over. It wasn’t far to the hospital and when they stopped, the doors flew open and people in pale blue scrubs and masks and caps reached for his mother as the EMT and the fireman slid the gurney out to them.

  In a flurry, she was gone. The EMT climbed down and disappeared around the front of the ambulance. The fireman straightened and his thinning brown hair brushed the ceiling. His face was wide and red and made for smiling, even though much of his mouth was hidden by a mustache big as a push broom. He turned to Ryder with glistening eyes and he sniffed and wiped them on his sleeve.

  “Okay, bud. Let’s get you inside and get someone to take care of you.”

  Ryder sat still until the fireman named Doyle took his arm. Ryder stood up and Doyle helped him down from the ambulance. Doyle put a hand on his shoulder and they walked inside together. They stopped in front of a desk where an orange-haired woman behind the counter chewed gum. A scary green-and-yellow dragon tattoo curled around the side of her neck, but her smile was cheerful.

  “Hey, little man. Do you have a dad?”

  Ryder opened his mouth to answer that question, but it wasn’t an easy one to answer under the best of circumstances, so nothing came out.

  Doyle kept his hand on Ryder’s shoulder and leaned over to study the confusion on his face. “Is there anyone else we should call? Does your mom have a boyfriend? Maybe you got a grandma or an aunt or a friend?”

  Now Ryder’s eyes began to water, so he clamped his lip between his teeth and shook his head before he gave the answer that was so big and so awful it crushed him.

  “No. We got no one.”

  “What’s your name, hon?” the lady behind the desk asked.

  “Ryder. Ryder Strong.”

  “How about your mom’s name?” she asked.

  “Ruby.”

  “Ruby Strong?”

  “No, her last name is Shoesmith. Ruby Alice Shoesmith.”